I want back there

This picture was taken this July after the first Biggest Loser Competion. I have just been so unmotivated since then and my weight just keeps going up. I want a flatter stomach, smaller arms, less back fat and more energy again. Things just seem to keep getting in the way mostly yummy food but this is what I want so that means tommorow I am waking up at 4 am to go running, some biking at 11am and the gym at 3pm. But the most important part for me is to eat right so that is going to be my focus this week journal everything before I put it in my mouth.

My New Motivation

Seeing myself in a bathing suit that should get me refocused on losing weight again.

So I finally did a Triathlon it was a 1.5 mile run, 12 mile bike and 400 yard swim. I had a blast and finished with better times than anticipated the transitions went great my bike worked and I did not get hurt. I finished 10 out 26 in my division with a time of 1:13:57. Thank you Matt for coming and supporting me and taking such great pictures. I can't wait to do another triathlon and if I am lighter it will be easier to get better times.

It is time

So I keep making excusses and putting off losing weight. I need to eat right and stick to my workouts. It is that simple why can I not seem to do it right now. But once again I am commiting to myself and all my random weight loss friends that I am going to lose weight this week and the weeks to follow until I reach my goal and then the big kicker I will maintain my goal weight.

I know I am weird but it helps to write it out so that I am more likely to stick with my goal.

Weigh in Proff

Well I sure can pack it back on in a hurry. Good thing I skipped In N Out last night or my weight would be back in the 180's. My goal for this competition is to win. Watch out ladies I usually get what I want.

Final Weigh In

Well this competition I have learned about how I want to live my life. Here is an example last competition after my final weigh in I put myself in a food coma for about 3 days and it took about 6 weeks to get my motivation back to lose weight. This time around I am going to start living my life in moderation in all things. If I want something I am going to have it in moderation. With first asking myself is it worth it. I plan on applying moderation to all areas of my life except exercise that I will always be a fanatic and over do it.

Current Weight 168.8
Weekly Weight loss .4lbs
Competition Total 6.2 lbs

My upcoming goals.
Lose weight this week.
160 and size 8 by Thanksgiving
157 by Christmas

For Staci

Staci asked when I exercise so here it goes or at least of what I remember. My workout schedule is constantly changing week to week based on what is going on in my life but I have learned that I have to be flexible.

Monday- Ran at 6:30 am took the kids in the stroller.

Bike ride with the kids in the trailer at 9:30 am.

Went to the gym at 4:00 pm.

Tuesday- Ran at 9:00am

Gym 7:30 pm

Wednesday- Gym 4:00 am

Thursday- Gym 9:00 am

Friday- Bike 9:30 am

Gym 3:30 pm

Weekly Weigh In

Okay so my weight is still the same because I ate way to many cookies this week. I have been really negative lately so I want to focus on the positive things that I did do this week.

This week I worked out 4.5 hours.
This week I ran 1 mile in 7 min 21 sec.

My goals for the week. No COOKIES, Brownies, Peanut Butter or eating after 7:00 PM. Lose 2 pounds.

Weekly Weigh In

Okay so I did really good Wed, Thur, then Fri-Sun I was so bad, then back on track Mon and Tues. So I guess maintaining for the week is better than gaining. I really just want to get to my goal already it seems like this weight-loss journey is never going to end.

Goals for the week lose 3 pounds and keep track of my food intake during the weekend.

Weekly Weigh In

Okay even with all the cupcakes this weekend I was able to loss some weight. I stepped up my workouts this week and I that really helped out. I really need to focus on my stomach area still really flabby I even got asked if I was pregnant by someone. Thanks for the motivation to work harder on my abs. Current Weight 169.4
Weekly Loss 2 lbs
Competition Total 5.6 lbs

Goals for the week stay in control of eating and journal every bite I eat. Lose 5 lbs to get back into this competition.

Weekly Weigh In

Blah, blah I eat to much. So my week was not the greatest I am just so busy all the time it is hard to keep focused on my goals. Current Weight 171.4
Weekly Weight Loss .2 lbs
Competition Total 3.6 lbs

This week is going to be awesome. I am going to lose 5 lbs watch out ladies I am finally ready to play again.

Weekly Weigh In

Not to bad this week I had 4 days of really good eating and then 3 not so good eating days. My husband and I went out to eat for lunch one day and I did really good I just ordered a side salad and had a few bites of my Matt's lunch I also did not eat too much of the bread basket. My biggest struggle this week was making food for a social and making too much becuase you don't want to run out and then I insisted on eating all the leftovers for the next two days. Exercise was good changed it up a little bit by adding in a Volleyball night at the church. Current Weight 171.6
Weekly Weight Loss 2.2 lbs
Competition Total 3.6 lbs

Goals for the week journal, exercise and run a 5K.

Weekly Weigh In

I lost weight this week. It has been since the end of the last competition (7/31) since I have lost a pound instead I have just been putting it back on. I really wanted big number this week but I will take any amount of a loss over a gain any day. I can also fit into my size 10 pants they are tight but hey they are on.

Current Weight 173.8 lbs
Weekly Weight Loss 1.2 lbs
Competition Total 1.2 lbs

Goals for next week. Stay in control of my eating even on bad days. Exercise 5 days this week. Journal my food intake everyday.

Blah

I really don't know what to write today but I have had such a crappy weekend eating. I need to stop eating so much if I want to lose weight. Doesn't that sound so easy but why do I end up talking myself out of eating what I should. I am just super frustrated right now I have been trying to lose weight for about 15 months now and I have lost weight but I just want to be happy with my body and size and I am not.

I know I can do this and I will. I need to be positive and stop doubting my ability to be strong and stick to my goals.

Weekly Weigh In

I am so excited for the competition to begin. I need this motivation to get the last 30 pounds off. Okay so I gained some weight since the last competition ended and it came right back on in the gut area. I am tired of being a size 12 and want to get rid of that ugly roll at my gut.

Current Weight 175
Total Pounds Lost 60 lbs

Goals for the week journal food intake everyday. Work out six days this week. Just say no to crappy food.

November

Can you believe I fit into that skirt in November. I bought it for my sister in law's wedding and wore it a couple more times to church before it became to big. I loved the pattern and never plan on being that big again so I had my mom almost completely resew the skirt so that I can wear it when I am a size 6-8 ish. My goal is to be able to wear it by the end of October. My weight has been blah. I have been eating blah. I have been stressed then I eat then I get depressed because I eat then getting stressed because I am getting fat. Did you get all that.

But here is the great thing I am finally motivated again. I will be skinny even if I can not control other areas in my life right now. If I do not have the food around me that I can eat I will simply eat nothing. Don't get me wrong I am still planning on eating but I am going to stop eating crap.

Rules

I have to give myself rules to live by while dieting or else I am easily distracted by food and laziness.

1. No eating after 7:00
2. Go to bed by 10:00
3. Complete all planned workouts.
4. Do not go over my 35 weekly allowance points.
5. No peanut butter. The stuff is the devil in disguise.

Weekly Weigh In

I can not believe how easy it comes back on when it is so hard to get off. But trust me it could have been worse. I am waiting for the day when being skinny will be the easy thing to do and not a constant struggle. I know it is all up in my head and someday it will click I am sure of it.

Any way I am back on track. I think the only extravagent thing I have planned this week is a pint of golden spoon for my birthday on Friday. I am doing the Core plan and love it so far.

Un Motivated

I think I have eaten more in the last 5 days than I did the whole competition. I have been so sick and I don't even enjoy most of the junk food I have been eating. I desperately need to get back on track. My rolls seem to be multiplying instead of disappearing.

What to do? Get back on track. I am going to stick to raw foods today and maybe tomorrow. Then I am going to switch to the Core plan on Weight Watcher's. I think switching to Core is really going to help jump start my weight loss. I went back to the gym today for a killer work out. I never actually stopped going I just didn't do a whole lot while I was at the gym. Tonight I will take a bike ride with the kids.

I can't wait to be skinny and healthy.

Results

3/27/087/27/08

Start Pant size 14
Current Pant size 12
Start Tops size XL
Current Top size M
Start Weight 192
Current Weight 161.6
Funnest thing about losing weight I can see some of my bones now they do exist.

By the way I am so excited that I won the biggest loser competition. And I can't wait to get to my goal weight.

Final Weigh In

Well I gave it all I had this week so I hope it is enough to win the Biggest Loser Competition. My final weigh in is..........

Current Weight 161.6 lbs
Weekly Weight Loss 6.6 lbs
Weight Watcher's Total 58.8 lbs
Cumulative Total Lost 73.4 lbs

Biggest Loser Total Pounds Lost 30.4 lbs


I have had so much fun with this competition it has pushed me further than I could have on my own. Thank you everyone for your words of encouragement and I wish you all the best with your weight loss and then keeping it off.

I will post my final picture tomorrow. 3 year olds do not make good photographers.

Weekly Weigh In

Current Weight 168.2
Weekly Weight Lost .2 lb
Weight Watcher's Total 52.2 lbs
Cumulative Total 66.8 lbs

I was so glad I didn't gain this week. I didn't want to mess up my losing streak of 12 weeks. Hopefully I can kick it up a notch this week. Seven days of healthy eating.

Training Log

Not to much going on here and that includes my activity. It has been so hot and I am so unmotivated to get out of the house somedays.

Swam 0 miles

Cycle 11 miles

Ran 15.3 miles

Total of 11.5 hours of total activity. I am still lifting weights and have been on the stair climbing machine at the gym.

Weekly Weigh In

Current Weight 168.4
Weekly Weight Lost 1 lb
Weight Watcher's Total 52 lbs
Cumulative Total 66.6

I am getting frustrated I just want to lose faster. I have been been dropping weight consistently but it just seems so hard and slow. I need a big weight loss this week. Now I only have two points left for the whole day. It is going to be another long night at school with lots of temptations. Those are size 10 pants. Never been that size before well in my teen and adult life that is.

Training Log

So it has been another slow week for activity. I mean I have done it just not at the intensity that I know I should be working out. Now I have school starting again this week so that will cut back on the amount of hours that I can devote to exercising.

Swam 1/4 mile
Cycle 12 miles
Ran 19 miles

Total of 13 hours of activity. I did get more ab workouts in this week. This upcoming week my goal is to not bail out on my planned activity and give 100% while working out.

I have been kind of discouraged this week and I have wanted to give up at times. I came across this photo. I thought I had deleted it but I didn't. When I originally saw this photo after we took it I just broke down crying. How could I let myself go this much? Anyway I am committed to my weight loss journey even though I just get so tired of the constant pressure I fell to keep losing weight and not regaining any of the weight I have lost. It has been a rough week.

Weekly Weigh In

I lost again. So happy that I did not gain this week being out of town and all.

Current Weight 169.4
Weekly Lost 1 lb
Weight Watcher's Total 51lbs
Cumulative Total 65.6 lbs

I have not been in the 160's since my senior year in High School. I really can't believe how close I am getting to my goals and then I will have the challenge of maintaining my weight. I look forward to the endeavor.

Training Log

Here is my training log for the week of 6/30-7/6.

Swam- 0

Cycle- 7 miles

Ran- 18.7 miles

Pretty lame but I was out of town for 3 days and when I was in town my car was in the shop so I could not make it to the gym. Only 5.5 hours of activity for the whole week. The really sad part was I could have totally swam while I was on vacation being at the lake and all but I didn't do any swimming just floating and I am positive that does not burn any calories.

I am planning on really kicking it up a notch this week with more exercise.

Weekly Weigh In

Another surprising weigh in I was hoping for .2 lost but was very pleased with my results.

Current Weight 170.4
Weekly Weight Loss 1.8 lbs
Weight Watcher's Total 50 lbs
Cumulative Total 64.6 lbs

I hit my 50 lbs at Weight Watcher's and I am so lame I actually started to cry when she gave me the lame little washer that represents your weight loss. This next week is going to be the hardest ever. We leave tomorrow for Lake Powell for 6 days. So I will not be weighing in next week I will be going back to the Monday's Mommy and Me group until the end of the competition. My goal is to lose .6 lbs so I can be in the 160's by my next weigh in.

Training Log

Training log for the week of 6/23-6/29.

Swam- .75 miles
Cycle- 10 miles
Ran- 22.4 miles

I did a total of 13.25 hours of activity. Two days of weight lifting and StairMaster. I did pretty good for being out of town for the weekend.

Weekly Weigh In

I lost again, yeah every week I think I am going to gain but some how I end up losing. I think all the activity is what really saves me. If only I could stick to my points everyday I would have been super skinny by now. I did 2 days of all raw fruits and veggies.

Current Weight 172.2

Weekly Loss 1.4 lbs

Weight Watcher Total 48.2 lbs

Cummulative Total 62.8 lbs

The next two weeks are going to be challenging. I am going to Phoenix with my sister Friday thru Sunday and then Thursday I will leave for lake Powell for 5-6 days. My plan is to plan ahead and take as much healthy snacks as possible with me and stay in control when I eat out.

Training Log

Training Log for the week of 6/16-6/22.

Swam-2.3 miles
Bike- 17 miles
Ran-21 miles

I was able to swim a half mile without stopping which is what I need to be able to do for my triathlon so that was exciting. I started lifting more weights this week I was starting to lose muscle mass because I was only doing cardio. My total activity time for the week was 13 hours.

Goals

Since this contest will be over in about 6 weeks I need to set some short term goals. So that I can get the most out of this experience.

1st- I do not want to gain during the next 6 weeks.
2nd- Get down to 160 pounds that is 13.6 lbs more.
3rd- Get into a size 10.
4th- Win this competition.

Weekly Weigh In

Is it already Wednesday again. It is and I did pretty good this week I had mostly good days of eating and only 2 days of not so great eating. My workouts were strong and the heat is really start to kick my butt, but I will hang in there.

Current Weight 173.6

Weekly Weight Loss 1.4 lbs

Weight Watcher Total 46.8 lbs

Cummulative Total 61.4 lbs

I have a huge challenge this week I have no car. It is in the shop and I have no idea when they will be done with it. But that just means getting on my bike and dragging the kids on tons of bike rides.

Training Log

Training totals for the week of 6/9-6/15.

Swam- 2.4 miles
Bike- 34 miles
Ran- 22.3 miles


Total of 14.8 hours of activity for the week. I was able to swim 400 meters consecutively. I was able to cut one of my run time down by 7 minutes. I am trying to include ab workouts everyday so I can finally get rid of my belly.

My husband started leaving for work earlier now so that means I have to start waking up at 4:00 am to go running wish me luck.

100 Pounds

I have officially lost 100 lbs since my heaviest weight. I topped the scales at 275 with my first pregnancy. I feel so much better now and I am so excited to become even smaller. Watch out ever one I am going to be one sexy size 6. My largest size was 22 currently a size 12 now that is a big change love the type of clothes that I can wear now.

Weekly Weigh In

I weighed in today and I was down yeah. It was another hard week lots of eating and cravings that time of the ya know what. I had five days of mainly overeating and then stuck to 2 days of raw fruits and veggies. I did good with not doing any emotional eating so I am proud of myself for that. I am looking forward to this week not to much going on.

Current Weight 175
Weekly Weight Loss 1 lb
Weight Watcher's Total 45.4 lbs
Cumulative Total 60 lbs

I need to reward myself for losing 60 lbs any ideas. I think I want a pedicure or highlights.

Training Log

I actually look kind of skinny in this picture plus isn't Charlie so cute.

Training log for week of 6/2-6/8.

Swam .5 mile
Bike 18 mile
Ran 17 mile

Total of 10 hours of activity. I can swim 200 meters without stopping. Started the week off very strong but do to family in town Thursday-Saturday had a very hard time getting in all my work outs. Food intake was below average from Wednesday to Sunday.

Goal for the week get over 14 hours of activity and eat healthy all week.

Weekly Weigh In

This week has been kind of a blah, some really bad days with some okay days. Workouts were good but the eating is what really gets me off track. I need to work on staying focused throughout the week and not just a couple of days before my weigh in.

Current Weight 176
Weekly Weight Loss .6 lbs
Weight Watcher Total 44.4 lbs
Cumulative Total 59 lbs

This week I am going to track all of my points even on my bad days and stay in control of my eating this weekend. I am going to try to loss 3 lbs this week.

Training Log

Training totals for the week of 5/26-6/1.

Swam 1.5 miles
Bike 35 miles
Ran 17.6 miles

Also did 3 days of weight training. For a total of 12 hours of activity. I can now swim a whole 100 meters in a row.

Goals for next week increase swim sets to 150 meters per set. Do two endurance runs of 5 plus miles and one strength run.

Fat Farm

Will someone please send me to a fat farm so I will stop eating so flippin much?

Weekly Weigh In

I am so shocked at the scale don't get me wrong I am so excited to be down but after my weekend away with eating until I was literally sick. Now that I know I lost for the week I will share exactly how much the scale was up when I came home Saturday night I was 11 pounds higher than when I left.

Current Weight 176.6
Weekly Weight Loss .6 lbs
Weight Watchers Total 43.8 lbs
Total Weight Loss 58.4 lbs

Goals for the week:
no cookies or brownies
do all planned workouts
track points everyday

Home

Matt and I had a great time on our weekend away from the kids. It is so nice to be home, now back to eating right. I pretty much took a vacation from activity and portion control I even had cookies and brownies lots of them. The scale is not pretty and I am so embarrassed to say how bad it is. But hopefully doing the raw food diet for the next 3 days and back to training for the the triathlon will get me back down.

My activity totals for last week.
Ran 15 miles
Bike 17 miles
Swam 1/4 mile

Weekly Weigh In

I had another good week. Three weeks in a row now with amazing weight loss. What I did to acheive my results I ran 19.5 miles, swam 3 times, lifted weight 2 times and biked 3 times. I tracked my food every day and even had flex points leftover. On Monday I felt strong urges to binge eat so for the whole day I only ate raw fruits and veggies.

Current Weight 177.2
Weekly Loss 2.8lbs
Weight Watchers Total 43.2 lbs
Total Weight Loss 57.8 lbs

Milestones for the week I hit my second 10 % for W.W., I am in the 170's club, and I went and bought a bunch of cute shirts in the Juniors section.

This is week is going to be so hard Matt and I are taking off for the weekend without the kids. We are going to Phoenix for a wedding and are going to be staying at a Resort. So that will be lots of eating out. I would like to maintain my weight while I am gone and keep active at least one walk/run and one swim and lots of ya know what. Wish me luck.

Tiathlon and a 1/2 Marathon

So I am so flippin excited I found a Triathlon sprint to do here in Las Vegas on a Saturday and a 1/2 Marathon on a Saturday. So my Tiathlon will be this Oct 18 and the 1/2 Marathon next March. Then after I have my smokin hot bod and have done these amazing events I can get pregnant again.

Okay so now I need to start training I need to be able to do a .5 mile swim, 13 mile bike and 3.1 mile run. Swimming is my weakest so I really need to learn how the properly swim and the other two areas I am not worried about I just need to increase my endurance so I can finish all three events.

New Toy

So I went out and got myself a new toy. It is so cool just pack my two kids in the back and off for bike rides anytime. The kids really enjoy it, except when they are trying to escape (scary). I got it for a good deal Craig's List brand new for only $50.

So I have a problem I really really want to do a triathalon sprint which is a .5 swim, 12 mile bike, and 3 mile run. But the one I want to do is September 28 which is a Sunday and my son's birthday. I really don't want to do it on Sunday, I want to be a good example to my kids ya know keeping the Sabbath Day holy. Most of them are on Sunday's but occasionly they have them on a Saturday. I don't know what do you guys think.

Weekly Weigh In

I had another great weigh in today. This week I ran 22.5 miles took 1 spin class, lifted weights 3 times, and took 1 kickboxing class. Mother's day was hard to much good food. I have been super hormonal this week but I was able to keep my eating in control must of the time. Monday and Tuesday I decided I wanted to up my weekly weight loss so I only ate fruit and veggies. I also fit into a pair of size 12 shorts so excited to clean out my closet and start shopping again.

Current Weight 180

Weekly Weight Loss 3.2 lbs

W.W. Total 40.4 lbs

Cumulative Total 55 lbs

My New Hair Cut

So here it is my new hair cut. I love it, still trying to figure out how to fix it.

Weekly Weigh In

Yeah I had an awesome week. For activity I ran 22 miles, 2 spin classes, 2 times lifting weights and swam laps on day. For eating I stuck to my points and had one day that I splurged and used all my flex points.

Current Weight 183.2

Weekly Loss 6.8 lbs

W.W. Total 37.2 lbs

Cumulative Total 51.8 lbs

Some super exciting things this week are I am at my lowest weight since I have been married. I have lost over 50 lbs so I am rewarding myself with a cute new hair cut. Also my husband came home early today and went on his own and bought me a gift certificate to get a massage so sweet.

Given it Up

So I have decided to give up one of my favorite foods of all time cookies and brownies. My problem is I just can't have one or even two it always seems to be about half the batch. So to make sure that I don't have more than one I am going to forgo my favorite treat for a while. Hopefully in a couple of months I will have more self control and I can enter them back into my diet.

Also I have made a decision to no longer eat after 7 pm. This is going to be hard because I don't get home from school until 9-10 at night. But I just need to be better prepared when I leave for school and make sure I have enough food.

Farewell sweet, chewy, gooey friends see you in a couple of months.

Weekly Weigh In

So it was a really bad week. I didn't even want to weigh in but I did and it is not pretty. That is okay there is nothing I can do about it now but learn from it and have a flippin awesome week this week. I was out of town most of the week and that is what I will blame my weight gain on but I could have done better and next time I go out of town I will.

Current Weight 190
Weekly Weight Gain 2.8 lbs :(
W.W. Total Weight Loss 30.4 lbs
Cummulative Total 45 lbs

My goal this week is to lose 5 lbs. To acheive this goal I will track everything and that means everything and exercise everyday and twice a day on at least three days.

Time for a healthy lunch, Good luck girls.

Rough Thursday

Thursday's always seem to be rough with eating healthy. I think it has to do with trying to cover up my anxiety about going to my Marketing class tonight. 20% of our grade comes from participation and it not like I am shy (anymore), I just don't like to talk in a class if I don't really have anything substantial to add. So I have eaten 5 fiber one bars in about one hour but I will just have a salad for dinner and not eat anything else and I should be okay.

As for my exercise this morning I went to Spin class and it was killer. I felt kinda bad though my daughter was in the child care area and was bitten really bad by another toddler. They got me out of class to look at it and sign an incident form. Anyway I look at it and it was pretty bad but it didn't break skin and she was fine by the time I got there. So I signed the incident form and kissed Charlie's hand and headed back to Spin class. I guess I am a bad mom but what would it help if we left the gym she was fine. The child care workers thought I was crazy for just leaving her, whatever Spin was amazing 85 minutes of sweat.

P.S. If I ever have an affair it will be with Spin, Love It. Hope my husband doesn't read this post.

Weekly Weigh In

Okay here it is my weekly weigh in.
Current Weight 187.2
Weekly loss .8 lb
W. W. total 33.2 lbs
Total Weight loss 47.8 lbs What I have learned from this week is that just because I have a bad food day does not make it a bad week. This next weekend will be really hard, I am going home to Goodyear to hangout with family and going home is always hard for me all those old eating habits. But I plan on taking my little Weight Watcher tracker and track everything I eat even when I go over on points.

No Weighin Today

Well, I decided not to weighin today I am going to switch back to my Wednesday meeting. I like the people there more and it is less crowded. Plus I had a really yummy weekend which means I am probably up today so I will just kick it into gear and weigh in on Wednesday.

Refocus

I need to refocus. I have had two really bad days. I just can't seem to stop eating sometimes. I do so well and then I start to overeat and sabotage my weight loss.

So tomorrow I will wake up a 6:00 a.m. go running then come home and have oatmeal. That will get me headed in the right direction. But then tomorrow is date night and we are trying a new restaurant but I know what I need to do to be successful.

Proud

I was so proud of myself last night at school I walked into the Student Unioun and they were giving away Free donuts. I even went over to the box and the nice lady said "Help yourself they are Free" I said "I think I will pass" how awesome is that I can do this and be very successful. I am really trying to kick things into gear I want to lose more than 2 lbs a week.

On the days that I can't make it to the gym I wake up early to go running. I have to wake up at 4:50 (in the morning) so I can run 3 miles before my husband leaves for work. I have done it twice this week so far and plan on doing it Saturday too. I want to start doing it on the days that I go to the gym too, but let me slowly work my way up to that. I love to sleep. But I love losing weight more.

Weekly Weigh In

Here it is my weekly weigh in.
Current Weight 188
Weekly Loss 1.2 lbs
W. W. Total 32.4 lbs
Total Weight Loss 47lbs

I am pleased this week I had a couple of bad days that included cookies but I also had some really good days one at the fair only 1/4 of a BBQ sandwich and Sunday dinner at the in-laws I did great.

A good thing

So I am feeling better and back on track. Saturday I did amazing we went to a fair. I know killer diet move. But I went knowing I wanted to be good and didn't want to spend crazy money on high calorie food. So I brought apples, fiberone bars and water. The only thing I had while I was there was a 1/4 of a BBQ sandwich not to shabby huh. I was super proud of myself. I even had my in-laws trying to buy me food but I stood strong and did great.

Frustrated

GRRRRRRRRR. I am super frustrated that last two days have not been so good.

Thursday- I was studying for a Marketing test and was getting stressed out about my soon approaching test and what do I do make cookies to bribe my teacher for a better grade. But of course eat about a dozen of them myself. why?

Friday- Started the day of great with breakfast, great workout at the gym, fruit on the way home from the gym then lunch and I go crazy why? Then tonight a social after ward temple night with lots of food I really did not need to eat.

Why? Why do I do this to myself? I work so hard and then blow it with nasty food that does not even taste very good. I felt so sick after eating a dozen cookies and then the sugar crash 3 hours later didn't make me feel any better.

What? What to do now? I plan to forgive myself there is nothing I can do about it now. Still go to my Weight Watcher's meeting on Monday even if that means I see a gain on the scale (I hate gains). I plan on eating food for nourishment and not to cover up my feelings.

Spin

So if anyone has taken a spin class they know what I am talking about it is super intense. So that last song in class you go balls to the walls and leave everything you got in the form of sweat on the ground. It is such a rush you feel like you can do anything but then I get so overwhelmed I start crying. Okay so I know I am an emotional women but really come on, crying during a spin class. Good thing the lights are off and by the time the lights come I can pass the tears for sweat.

Oh No

So I have a new calling and it is so awesome but it was also the reason I ate 4 cookies today. I am the 8 year old activity leader. I have 6 cute little 8 year old girls that will be coming over 2 times a month. I just need to figure out activities that don't involve food.

Weekly Weigh In

I weighed in this morning at Weight Watchers. Here goes
Current Weight 189.2
Weekly total 1.2 lb
W.W total lost 31.2 lb
Total weightloss 45.8 lb Very excited to be in the 180's again. Goals for the week include going to the gym 5times and taking spin 2times. Eating consciously and writing down everything I eat.

So today was a good day. We went out to dinner at Chili's and I ordered of the Guiltless Grill and was able to stay within my points for the day. I am amazing. This weekend should be good my parents are in town so I can't overeat to much. I am looking forward to my weigh in on Monday it should be good.

Bathing Suit Time

It is that time of year again where all the skinny girls get to go and a buy super cute swimsuits. While I am stuck dreading the whole situation. But that is not going to be the case much longer by August I will be one sexy mama and I can pick any suit I want to wear. I will probably will stay away from the bikini's for many reasons including but not limited to strech marks, saggy skin, and the whole modesty issue.

But I think this one piece will still turn some heads. Sexy body here I come.

What I look like now

After losing 44 lbs this is what I look like now. It is better than my previous picture but I still have 41 lbs to go before I hit my goal. Some of my goals include being able to just put on a bathing suit and go swimming with friends or family instead of saying "I don't fell like swimming today". I live in Vegas of course I want to go swimming it is flippin hot in the summer.

Another very big goal of mine it to run a 1/2 marathon. I want to be able to run one by December.

I want rock hard abs a six pack would be great.

To achieve my goals I plan on sticking to my Weight Watchers points and working out 6 times a week for at least one hour. Making sure I am mentally prepared for success.

Why I am here?

Hi my name is Ashley. This was me July of 2007. I had given birth 3 months prior to my second child Charlie. I gained 45 lbs during my pregnancy not as bad as 60lbs with my first, Andrew but still way to much. I was doing great and lost 20 lbs right away. But baby blues hit me hard and I put the 20 lbs right back on.

My breaking point. My parents were in town and we were taking pictures and I look at my digital camera to make sure it looked okay and I just broke down I had no idea I looked that bad. I started taking some nutritional crap to help with the depression and started eating better. Having worked at Jenny Craig for 3 years I knew what I should be doing but just struggled with daily motivation. Losing 15 lbs in 3 months I decided I needed a little help so I joined Weight Watchers I have lost 30 lbs in 5 months. But I still struggle every day to keep on track so I am hoping that this Biggest Loser Competition will be what this body needs.

By the way everyone I will be the biggest loser.