November

Can you believe I fit into that skirt in November. I bought it for my sister in law's wedding and wore it a couple more times to church before it became to big. I loved the pattern and never plan on being that big again so I had my mom almost completely resew the skirt so that I can wear it when I am a size 6-8 ish. My goal is to be able to wear it by the end of October. My weight has been blah. I have been eating blah. I have been stressed then I eat then I get depressed because I eat then getting stressed because I am getting fat. Did you get all that.

But here is the great thing I am finally motivated again. I will be skinny even if I can not control other areas in my life right now. If I do not have the food around me that I can eat I will simply eat nothing. Don't get me wrong I am still planning on eating but I am going to stop eating crap.

Rules

I have to give myself rules to live by while dieting or else I am easily distracted by food and laziness.

1. No eating after 7:00
2. Go to bed by 10:00
3. Complete all planned workouts.
4. Do not go over my 35 weekly allowance points.
5. No peanut butter. The stuff is the devil in disguise.

Weekly Weigh In

I can not believe how easy it comes back on when it is so hard to get off. But trust me it could have been worse. I am waiting for the day when being skinny will be the easy thing to do and not a constant struggle. I know it is all up in my head and someday it will click I am sure of it.

Any way I am back on track. I think the only extravagent thing I have planned this week is a pint of golden spoon for my birthday on Friday. I am doing the Core plan and love it so far.

Un Motivated

I think I have eaten more in the last 5 days than I did the whole competition. I have been so sick and I don't even enjoy most of the junk food I have been eating. I desperately need to get back on track. My rolls seem to be multiplying instead of disappearing.

What to do? Get back on track. I am going to stick to raw foods today and maybe tomorrow. Then I am going to switch to the Core plan on Weight Watcher's. I think switching to Core is really going to help jump start my weight loss. I went back to the gym today for a killer work out. I never actually stopped going I just didn't do a whole lot while I was at the gym. Tonight I will take a bike ride with the kids.

I can't wait to be skinny and healthy.